my guilt

小木瓜还挺受欢迎的哦... posted her photo to omy website and now she got 202 views wor...

可爱归可爱, little one seems really smart nowadays. and being smart, means she begin to develop preference... sometimes, she would prefer to be carry like this, sometimes she prefer to wait and carried a while before being fed, sometimes she like to sleep on her pink chair, sometimes she prefer her cot... and if things not done her way, wail wail wail....

this morning, when we were on our way to the baby sitter's place, megan suddenly cried. and so, i carried her instead... and guess what? one of her hands, grabbed my shirt tightly... she never did that to me before, she only did that to other people cuz she is scared of falling... and with me carrying her, she is always looking so comfy and relax, but not today... i'm thinking to myself "she dun want to go to her baby sitter's place??"

and when we were reaching baby sitter's place, megan already felt so relax in my arms that she forgotten about it and let go of my shirt... i quickly passed megan to her baby sitter and off we go.... not really go thou, cuz i'm a little worried, so we stood outside for a while... and my fears were confirmed, we heard megan crying from the house... we went back, asking megan's baby sitter if she need help, she said no need and waved us to go... we should really trust the expert lah... afterall, she had 3 kids of her own and had been baby sitter before...

but i'm still worrying thou... joelle reassured me that babies are like that one... and she mentioned, maybe i didn't stayed home with megan alone for a long period of time, cuz during joelle's ML, she had to bear with megan's crying when making milk for megan or preparing to bath megan... anyway, joelle called back when we reached bugis and confirmed megan is settled down... (i'm still worrying about megan the whole day thou... dun know why...)

somewhat, i'm still very guilty to leave megan with joelle's brother and sister last sat... not that i don't trust them (btw, joelle's brother and sister are already parents themselves lor), just that, i really feel bad lor... i should have waited for joelle to return from her OT before i go off to work... but then again, if i keep pamper and protect megan, she will never grow or learn... aiya, dun know lah...

last nite, took this pict of megan's foot clapped together... so funny...

my goodness... i realised i kept having typo error... must be the medicine i took for my cough and runny nose... yup, 我生病了... i'm really drowsy now..... i got, to , sleep.., an.d  , dun froget ot vote for mee ah...zzzzz....

pix.with.lumix.74

ferber or sears?

last nite, while working, joelle called me saying she and megan already reached home... they were supposed to spend the nite at joelle's mum place but somehow, megan just cry and cry and cry... it seems like she is recognising place and people... and so, joelle LL got to bring megan back home... and maybe she cried too much, and now, she woke up crying, as if still recalling her crying ordeal... haiz, tot her cough recovering and i can get back my sleep but now.... dun know how long she need to get over it liao...

now, back to the question, did i carry megan too much? i checked the web, and it says nothing about carrying baby too much, and its old wives' tales... baby this age, should be shown lotsa love, and not leaving there like nobody's child... ok, maybe i overdo it liao, now got to let megan cry it out a bit, before carrying her...

now i'm stuck with the 2 schools of thoughts... should i go for the ferber (cry-it-out) method or sears (no tears) method? 好难做决定哦... 还是暂时别想这个, 花一点时间呼吁呼吁一下... vote for me oh... keke

what she wants... really...

i did mention she love doreamon, didn't i? she can just quietly lay there and watch doreamon... and after that, she sleeps. and so, i started reading the notes i brought back home, getting myself ready for tonight's work at office, to setup the new emc ax4-5 storage... boring stuffs to be mentioned here... :P

and in fact, so the boring stuff, after 1 hour of struggling to keep myself awake while reading the notes, i decided to take a nap... so, i carry megan to our bed, and wah lah, she woke up...

she turned to the windows... think she sleeps?

nah... still pretty much awake...

then she turned back to me and do this at me:

what she really wants wor? tot she is hungry cuz of her mega puke this morning... made milk for her, and she dun want! tot she is mischievous again, so try and try until give up, carry her and hmmm songs to her and then, she sleeps... kaoz... 原来是要睡觉而已哦...

i better go take a nap too... home alone with baby is no easy task... wonder how joelle managed to do so during her maternity leave... :P

to joelle,

hi dear, while you're at work, i've fed and bathe our little angel. she is getting mischievous nowadays, and dun want her milk when you feeding her, cuz i think she wants to play and be hold first... so, after you left home for work, i lay her on her pinky chair and not giving her attention and just watch tv... less than 5 minutes, she is wailing for attention, and so, i carry her and fed her and she finishes it in no time!

after letting her rest for a while, i fed her antibiotic and it was a success! she didn't split out wor... just only have to feed her with the syringe, little by little...

then when the water boils, i gave our little one a shower... it all goes well until when i just finished washing her hair and dried it and was about to put her on the water... she mega-puked... all over herself and me... must be the angle i'm holding her when washing her hair... its just enough not to let the water flow from her hair to her face but also just enough to make the milk flow back out from her stomach... kaoz... the question is, how to clean a baby when your body is full of her puke? figure it out yourself, and i'm not telling... haha~~~

anyway, still managed to bathe our little one... soothe her and played with her until she dozed off on FM96.3, the classic radio station... and me? i've showered too, and gonna make some coffee and eat bfast after this post...

btw dear, have a smooth day at work and we miss you!!!

PS: i also got to go back office after 4pm... haiz...

oops, megan wakey le... can hear her making the ummm, ammm and emmm sound again... switched on the TV and found out... did she wakey in time for her favourite doreamon cartoon??