my guilt

小木瓜还挺受欢迎的哦... posted her photo to omy website and now she got 202 views wor...

可爱归可爱, little one seems really smart nowadays. and being smart, means she begin to develop preference... sometimes, she would prefer to be carry like this, sometimes she prefer to wait and carried a while before being fed, sometimes she like to sleep on her pink chair, sometimes she prefer her cot... and if things not done her way, wail wail wail....

this morning, when we were on our way to the baby sitter's place, megan suddenly cried. and so, i carried her instead... and guess what? one of her hands, grabbed my shirt tightly... she never did that to me before, she only did that to other people cuz she is scared of falling... and with me carrying her, she is always looking so comfy and relax, but not today... i'm thinking to myself "she dun want to go to her baby sitter's place??"

and when we were reaching baby sitter's place, megan already felt so relax in my arms that she forgotten about it and let go of my shirt... i quickly passed megan to her baby sitter and off we go.... not really go thou, cuz i'm a little worried, so we stood outside for a while... and my fears were confirmed, we heard megan crying from the house... we went back, asking megan's baby sitter if she need help, she said no need and waved us to go... we should really trust the expert lah... afterall, she had 3 kids of her own and had been baby sitter before...

but i'm still worrying thou... joelle reassured me that babies are like that one... and she mentioned, maybe i didn't stayed home with megan alone for a long period of time, cuz during joelle's ML, she had to bear with megan's crying when making milk for megan or preparing to bath megan... anyway, joelle called back when we reached bugis and confirmed megan is settled down... (i'm still worrying about megan the whole day thou... dun know why...)

somewhat, i'm still very guilty to leave megan with joelle's brother and sister last sat... not that i don't trust them (btw, joelle's brother and sister are already parents themselves lor), just that, i really feel bad lor... i should have waited for joelle to return from her OT before i go off to work... but then again, if i keep pamper and protect megan, she will never grow or learn... aiya, dun know lah...

last nite, took this pict of megan's foot clapped together... so funny...

my goodness... i realised i kept having typo error... must be the medicine i took for my cough and runny nose... yup, 我生病了... i'm really drowsy now..... i got, to , sleep.., an.d  , dun froget ot vote for mee ah...zzzzz....